Being Lost can be a WONDERFUL Thing!!

Most of you know me as Clint, one of the club owners of Premier Evolution...the guy who puts on the shows and flirts no stop on a dance floor. Others know me as a person who takes great pride in his work and his vision and has a blast seeing it come to fruition. Others, and very few of you know me as a the person who is struggling to get out from behind the other two previously mentioned persona's and just be Clint.

Many people come to SL for many different reasons, but the one that I am most interested in ... is why they stay. SL isn't easy in those first couple of weeks, while you wander aimlessly trying to find what it is all about and what the possibilities are, how to get started, how to get money and mostly how to buy that fabulous pair of shoes you saw :P Most of you also don't know that I am a very creative person in RL, I have worked in the flower industry on and off for most of my adult life..although currently not working in that industry but still missing it desperately. And that was the reason that I stayed in SL....it feeds my creativity. It did not take long to get bitten by the builder bug and the possibilities are endless!! Add to that my love to entertain, throwing dinner parities to large events and boom....we had the making of Evo. There is nothing like loosing yourself in a build or being immersed in creativity. Some of my hardest RL & SL times...I have grabbed my hammer or more lately my camera and have set off to leave all those issues behind and create or build something beautiful. The day that I had to put my 15 y/o basset hound, Sebastian to sleep...I came home in tears, logged in world, picked up my hammer and for the next 8-10 hours built one of my best builds ever, Creation. It didn't amaze me when it was done that it resembled a temple...i built it in honor of my boy. But in those hours i don't remember connecting a single prim...it all just flowed out of me. In recent days, it has been my photography, coming up with a concept for art, adding all the elements to make a great picture, pulling it into photo shop and working on it until it is perfect or at least something that I am very proud of.

SL has always been an extension of my RL self from the first day I picked up my hammer and started building....however, I loose myself in the build, in the creativity of it all. I forget all the issues that surround me or are effecting me at the time and focus on what is beautiful.

So my advise to you is find what brings you happiness, what is an extension of what you are and what you want to be...and then Loose yourself in it....it really is a wonderful thing.

Here is a glimpse of what i have been "loosing" myself in lately. Hope you enjoy....Huggs Clint

Time Marchs On

Sorry for the long delay in posting. Have had a lot of RL issues to deal with in the last week that has kept me away from the blog and unfortunately even out of SL...i know **gasp** LOL. It has been a difficult week for ole Clint, trying to process all of the mistakes that were made, the trust that was broken and how to put it all behind me. I really want to thank all of the people for the kind messages and concerns....you are all such awesome friends and I love you dearly. I have been spending a lot of time working on my photography and loosing myself in how to make beautiful things instead of the ugly mess that continues to swirl around me. I am trying really hard to ignore the rumors and accusations that are being said....but if you know me..I really don't think that I need respond to them. In fact, I won't. Thanks again everyone and I will see you on the dance floor. Here's a hint...i will be the one damn near naked ....snicker. Hugggs

NOTHING ELSE NEEDS TO BE SAID

What Goes Round!

Last night I was hurt. I was angry. And a side of me came out that I have never seen! This morning when I woke up I was totally like WTF?? I honestly scared me. I re-read the blog from last nite and was in total shock and went to delete it. But then I was like...no that needs to be a reminder to me of where I can go so easily. It isnt me and that isnt how I do things...never have and never will....hopefully! So the post stays as is...and is being replaced with this...thanks to everyone for their messages of support. I love you all Huggs Clint

Hey Drac, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now Drac, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong........

Played the Fool

Wow....what can happen in a matter of hours. From my previous blog this afternoon, you could tell that i was on cloud nine! Happiness I ever remember being...had everything that I thougt I needed. Unfortunately...I wasnt enough for a certain person...in fact come to find out several men are not enough to satisfy Mr. Demonia. And apparently he gets great pleasure in playing and toying with people's emotions. Oh to be played the fool!!! An for a year now, I have tried very hard not to play games and sink to a level of some of these scum crawlers that i have met in SL....(clint searches inventory for latex body suit and selects wear outfit). This time I dont think I can let this one pass me by and not do something about it. (Clint put gloggls on for eye protection) This is just absolutely unasked for and deserves a little bit of a response. (clint put on the thigh high black leather boots) ( clint puts the body straps & cuffs) Bottle of tequila in hand and a pack of smokes in the back pocket...GAME ON BITCH! You play with peoples emotions like others play with xcite parts. Time to learn what playing with a professional is really like!

I was going to insert one of those sappy played a fool kinda songs here...but know what...this one fits ohhhhhhh so much better! See you at the craps table Drac...your dice...better roll a good one!

Kissing You!!!!

It has, as always, been a very busy couple of weeks with events at Evo etc. But I have tried so hard to try and find time to spend with my wonderful man, Drac. In the past couple of weeks, we have spent a lot of time exploring some incredible sims in SL. (I hope to post more about those in a future post) Something I have never really spent much time doing in SL however doing these things with Drac makes it even that much more special. Having my mistress, Evolution, and how it consumes so much of my time...I never thought I would be able to find someone who would be willing to share my time & emotion with another. But Drac has coped incredibly. You can usually find him right next to me on the dancefloor, partying it up at Premier right along with me. And when we are not there...we are off somewhere having a wonderful time, doing all the things that i have wanted to do.

Last night we started setting up house together, which is very exciting!!! Hope to have some pics of the new place for you soon. Drac you have made me feel alive! I feel as if i have actually started living in SL and you have brought so much happiness to me & i know that there is so much more to come. I love you bb and can't imagine a day without you!! I feel so comfortable in your arms as if my body was made for them. My heart jumps at the thought of being near you and aches when it isn't. You make me feel complete. I don't know what else to say other than....thank you Drac!

Why are we here???

Hello fellow bloggers!! Hope that you all are doing well. I must say that after yesterday's post and all of the response that I received...I have to ask one very simple question. Why are we here? What reason do each of us have for logging in every day into SL and returning day after day and week after week? I hope you ask yourself that question!! I can tell you the answer to that question when I pose it to myself. Because I am having fun!!! I have said to many of you, "If you aren't having fun doing it...then you are doing it for the wrong reasons" And I am having a blast!! Yes it is alot of work dealing with all the events at Evo & yes it difficult sometimes working with almost 50 employees; dancers, escorts, dj's etc...not to mention the vendors and such. But what a hell of a ride!! The second & more important reason that I do it...is i hope that others in SL have fun as well. There is nothing that makes me happier than to get an IM near the end of an event thanking me for a great party..or saying what a great time they have had. That right there makes it all worth while!! Also...I have just as much fun when there are just a handful at the event as I do when we are on the verge of crashing it. Another mantra of mine...it just takes 2 to be a party. (winks at Drac), wait that might be a subject for another post. LOL So please take a moment and pose this question to yourself...and if you aren't here to have fun & make sure that others have fun as well...please let me draw your attention to the little red "x" in the upper right hand corner of your screen. Thanks guys & Let's PARTY!!!! Huggs Clint